I let you lead me to think it was me
That I was crazy
Gaslit
Aflame
But now I realize
It wasn’t me
It was you
Hiding your white fragility
In the guise of worry
When you called me honey
And said you worried
That I’d miss out
On what I could be enjoying
Because of my critical disdain
My anger, my pain
I let you hug me
When inside so uneasy
That your words made me quesy
And when I yelled
That her words stung and hurt
“She’s well intentioned,” they said
Fuck your intention
I let you cause me to believe
That I was crazy
Ill tell you what’s crazy
Looking right at a friend
Asking them to hide from their pain
Because what they see
Is beyond you to feel
They call that privilege
When you can cause someone to believe
Their words don’t matter
And their thoughts start to shatter
Your words seeping doubt
In my heart and my mind
I let you lead me to believe
I was crazy
Gaslit
Aflame
I won’t let you again
I found my power.
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