A memoir in progress, about living life in unruly bodies
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Face cream
My mom mixed me this fancy lotion She took all her face creams Her favorite ones Mixed them all up In a fancy jar And gave them to me That was two years ago I use it sparingly So it lasts forever Like I hope she lasts forever Because I cannot bear to think of […]
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Reaching out for voices Who can listen to me scream Wails of fears unfinished Outcomes as mysteries remain With the sterile beep Of the answering machine I steel my voice And force a smile to my lips To hide away the pain “I called to say I love you” Because love is all that remains
MoreRing the Alarm
You are an alarmist You always have been You react Before you should You think before you reason Hopping quickly at each bite of news Your anecdotes make your data Your hyperbole eclipse your logic You are unmeticulous And haphazard And you will not be my undoing There are theories and there is practice Life […]
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We think we are so strong But humans We are crazy fragile Stupid, silly fragile So there’s no shame In showing our cracks We break Our bodies Our hearts Our spirits And each other But we rise Phoenix From the ashes Fused from breaks Forever just as fragile But repaired At our cracks That we […]
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I can hear myself swallow Each movement Jerks Against the corners of the inside of my mind Irregular movements Make uneven beats They pound inside me Building heat Filling my eyes Tears hot Covering my cheeks The scars Where they cut me open Skin, flesh, skull They throb As though alive for themselves I ache […]
MoreThat voice
I heard my mom sing today It was beautiful Especially after the doctor’s visit She’d said, it’s unusual But people have lived for years With metastatic disease She had to say unusual Why did she have to say unusual? Mom took it as hope I was gripped with fear But we heard “Strangers in the […]
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