Cancer

Cancer

I wrote down her diagnosis

So I could learn it

Control it

Manipulate it somehow

As though deleting it from the page

Would release her

I wrote down her diagnosis

So I could memorize it

So I could feel close to her

Protect her

Fix her

I wrote down her diagnosis

But the words don’t make sense

I can’t help her

I can’t fix her

I deleted her diagnosis

But it remained

Treatment loomed

Words gone, ideas unchanged

So I wrote it back down

Stayed with it

Stared at it

Hated it

Her 2  +
Estrogen +
Chemo 6, surgery, radiation
Progesterone –
Her diagnosis